oh shoots

2003-11-26T06:38:00.000-08:00

all i feel like doing is typing lyrics out..

now i know i had it all cos i had you just to see you made me smile oh why was i too blind to see that i had everything that yu completed me i can still rem how you held my hand like you'd never let it go but here i am alone trying to move on wondering how a love like ours cud go so wrong will love come back to me come back again to me when i still believe tt ure still the one i need tho im trying to make it thru living is so empty w/o u and i wonder why we must go on this way

its been too long and im lost w/o u what am i gonna do so u n me wondering if ure the same whose been with u is yr heart still mine i wanna cry sometime i miss you off to college straight from high school you up and left me we were close frens or some lovers did everything for one another but i know i got to live it somehow come back to me can u feel me hear calling for u so im sitting here thinking abt u just driving me crazy i dunno what to do i just wondering if u still care i dont wanna let u know tt its killing me

2003-07-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

JFF

-my heart says we've got sth real can i trust the way i feel cos my heart's been fooled before am i just seeing what i want to see or issit true could you really be someone to have & hold with all my heart & soul i need to know before i fall in love someone who stay around through all my ups & downs pls tell me now before i fall in love-

-and i could see the sun setting over the hill this feels too real to me just another dream hold me in this place where everytihng is clear and you said stand at the edge and dont be afraid to fall take a breath and tell me what you see as we sat down by the water in my mind i felt and we talked for hours doesnt matter what it was about just as long as i was there with you-

-bagaimana harus aku menahan rasa rinduku bila kau tiada di sisi? tak dapat ku membayangkan rasa rindu dalam jiwa kita sama sama rasa. Ku menyanyngiimu hingga hayat nanti pasti kanbersama ku mengharapkanmu untuk meneruskan perjalanan cinta ini Aku cinta aku rindu walau berjauhan ku tahu hatimu Aku cinta aku rindu Tuhan berkatilah cintaku padanya-

2003-07-11T03:50:00.000-07:00

yo peeps.. this was my old blog.. decided to change my current one to be a private blog.. so yea ill inform u my new addy when i feel like it.. :).. can take me off ure links.. unless i decide to write in some weird entry here

2003-06-14T06:42:00.000-07:00

testing testing.. stupid blogger.. i attempted changing my template to have some cute kitty.. then i tried adding a post.. then didnt appear.. so i reverted back .. but the post didnt appear either.. wth.. sth to do with the publishing mebbe.. then joan n dawn thot i put same colour font as background.. vv smart... im sooooo sure..

bah i lost my flick.. BAH.. pwee n i seriously have alternate pitching days.. but i hope it wont continue cos pwee absolutely rox today... :) damn ppower.. shall attempt to have nice strikes too.. but today was freaking hot.. i nearly fainted.. ok not tt extreme but i had to stop cos stupid lungs were contracting giving me a hard time..n i completely collapsed in the mrtand just blasted music all the way home.. but nooo.. i had to go out again and WALK to the frekaing station tts like how far away .. to mail a letter.. otherwise i wun get my money thingy.. and i wanted to take the free shuttle service back but noo there were lke 4 mats waiting there.. like.. EEEEE id rather walk.. then pitching like involves lotsa stamina.. funnily i dun take napfa cos of tt!! BAH.. stupid asthma.. was thinking today.. mebbe i shudnt have joined a sports cca.. trying to kill myself again.. but i will just kill myself anyway if i become a big slob..

MY WHOLE WEEK IS BURNT!!!!!! I ONLY HAVE A WEEK LEFT TO MUG!!!!.. -dead-mon-class outing, tues-sliding training + chalet(maybe) wed-chalet + free dinner! thurs-training + PW... kaoz..u better publish stupid blogger

2003-06-13T07:53:00.000-07:00

yay uploaded liaoz.. go seeeee.. -->
hahaz.. my scanner sucks anyway.. got a free 8R foto.. think will blow up the team foto and put on the board.. JOAN.. where the seniorz' notes.. put it on the board too.. !
bah.. parents are mad at me.. meaning no money.. cos i forgot to get allowance from daddy this week.. and meansno chalet.. -whine- means no.. ahhhhh!!! -whine- tts like so sad.. will be like the longest time eva... boohoo.. cripes..
ho hum wonder if i can wake up early by myself tom.. shud i study in skl?

shucks.. heard sth not very pleasant.. ho hum.. :( whats wrong with my life ever since hols started!! its been getting from bad to worst.. BAH..

2003-06-12T03:03:00.000-07:00

Eva Cassidy - Time After Time
Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Turning in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback to warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories,
Time after

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you have said
And you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

Chorus:
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

After your picture fades and darkness has
Turned to grey
Watching through windows I’m wondering
If you’re OK
And you say go slow
I fall behind
The drum beats out of time

Chorus:
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

mmm…time after time
Oooh…time after time
Time after time
.. nice song.. i am like taking forever to scan n upload my recent batch of fotos.. bah.. tried doing maths.. gave up after like 3 qns.. heez

oh yea.. at same time mayi qr n xingni were like smsing.. getting lost.. haha.. stupid guy go and lead them to the super long route.. oh wells.. no visiting then.. mebbe ill say byebye if i go out to buy me some snacks.. supply running low...only supplies left are choc.. em i wanna go yr house and eat all ure goodiesss.. !! unfair.. bah.. haiz shall try to upload the fotos.. esp of seniors.. hahaz.. so cutes..

2003-06-10T02:08:00.000-07:00

back from trip.. quite boring lah.. was pretty angry on the first day cos i was like thinking 'oh no not another stoning by the beach with family trips' with like HORRIBLE toilets.. and lousy rooms.. the highlight of the afternoon was a flying fish.. but the night got better cos there were just SOOOOOOOOO many stars to admire.. :) at night, the stars and the beach was so surreal cos u cudnt see any islands at the horizon.. it looked like the Truman show.. where u can step on the water and simply open a door at the end .. funky,.., yea they looked like postcards! and felt so close.. :) had girl talk with sis.. which was quite fun...played pool..n stoned on the beach till like 11pm.. 2nd day was ok i guess.. went snorkelling.. fed little fishies.. the big ones were damn scary to swim with.. then was so poofed i just slept from 430 to dinner.. then played more pool and stoned on the beach again.. hehez.. man can u believe i actually read my PW book cos i had nothing to do!! heeeezz.. ooh highlight of the last day was playing with the 3 adorable kittens!!!!!! i have a natural tendency to squeal NOVI! when i see a cat.. :) why must novi be so ignorant of me now... so sad... wished she was still a playful kitten.. and i missed training.. DUH.. ooh was pretty amused to find my phone had auto roaming so some poor souls have to pay extra i guess..i mean u dawn! kaoz.. call me even..

finally.. spent so much time blasting music from the discman.. had lotsa thots abt stuffs.. n came to a conclusion.. :) nobody can make me feel unhappy.. i wont make anyone.. not even the stupid idiot who scolded me for using my phone (WHICH I WAS NOT) at the checkpoint.. i just woke up and feeling crabby and tt guy had to pass such irritating comments.. wanted to make him read between the lines man.. hehez.. :X lalala.. lets go plan tom..

2003-06-07T03:57:00.000-07:00

mebbe i was too harshh.. hmm why do i keep thinking abt it!! its nothing.. right? am i deluding myself? sigh.. well mebbe ill do some packing and whine to anyone who will listen later. .:) sorry u have ta hear me whine so much qr..

anyway i read thru my old blogs.. -
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts And we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart. Far too many times we let unimportant things into our minds; And then it's usually too late to see what made us blind. So be sure that you let people know how much they mean to you; Take that time to say the words before your time is through....

ive realised tt i have lots of pple to turn to when im upset.. as in if i wanna just chat.. i cud just pick up the phone and call my dearest frens.. so grateful for tt..

i felt like i was losing sth when i saw all the expressions on the faces n hugged all the girls.......and ure always there for me.. thank you.. means a lot more to me than you think

some parts make me sad.. in a diff wayy.

2003-06-07T01:46:00.000-07:00

from dee - you can't decide who you get to keep in life; fate does. because as much as you never wanted the person to go, he/she finds someone else.. or you inadvertantly move on.. - ay... so freaking tired.. dun feel like packing until like later tonight.. wonder if i will get blacker than i already am.. hahaz.. i find it quite impossible.. let it be impossible.. let it be..

lets see how long did i train today.. 8am to 12pm. 4 hours? so little..heehee then stomache grumbled in the middle of training .. and stef heard it .. quite malu hahaz.. then never even go shopping after training cos dee just woke up.. quite sad.. cos i want my frenship ring!!! i want a ring.. !!! hahaz... budden again quite dead from last night.. reached home at 12.. thank god mummy didnt blast my ears off.. it was nice to spend time with qr n ken.. my siblings.. awwwwwwww.. darn.. i wun be able to pitch until thursday.. mebbe ill bring a ball along and get my sis to catch... hahaz.. shed prob slaughter me.. how unsupportive.. -pout- hehez.. means pwee has to train pitching with the guys for the first time alone.. oops.. sorry dear. budden again ure ditching me the following monday! lalala.. feel like sleeping now.. ho hum..

2003-06-05T07:12:00.000-07:00

body aching.. from pitching.. hmm sorta finally figured out.. but it still sucks.. esp when the ball goes high high highhhh up... oh wells.. ended with a good note.. with a nice fast accurate pitch.. yay.. watching coach pitch was like so fluid.. :) so gentle but so power.. guys were like having 'fitness trainin' and seniors were having bash.. quite cool.. training with music.. hahaz..

tom is the last day of skl.. yet it is a horrble day.. got stupid malay orals which i will flunk.. and stupid econs essay test on elasticity.. whats wrong with tt (as ain puts it) telur mannnnnnnn! hmms the only thing cheering me up a bit is ill meet qr.. my darrling meimei.. :) miss her sooooo much.. but the journey there is gonna be like super long walk.. eeks.. i hate going down.. always feel so extra.. and i dun feel like changing.. heez.. and... tak nak jumpaa.. :( dunnolah.. just dun feel like it.. mebbe i did lose it.. sad.. nvm.. guess sharon was right to some pt.. oh btw.. thnx dawn for all the song suggestions.. downloading like crazy now.. :) -yawn- mebbe ill read some econs.. sigh

2003-06-02T06:18:00.000-07:00

omg i just wasted like dunno how much time on stupid koko krunch cd!!!!!!!!!!! cripes.. why did my sis influence me into doing the freaking compre, vocad n grammar thingies meant for 6-12yrs old!!!!! kaoz.. in actual fact.. the cd was pretty tough.. esp for 6 year olds.. im sure they will know words like curator, juvenile delinquents and artisan right.. hahaz.. gosh..

was a pretty slack day today.. except my tvs arent working.. so i have to steal some time from my grandmas tv to watch frenz.. how sad.. when mondays are tv days.. lalala.. dunno whats wrong with meeeeeee.. wished i had more closer frenz.. oh no.. amir just called.. reminded me abt hw.. SUCKKKKKKKKKSSSSSS.. oklah.. mebbe i shud go do.. yay training tom .. :) wonder what we are gonna do.. first time field day w/o seniors.. i hope it doesnt get too frustrating.. oh no reminds me.. havent cleaned boots n glove.. wth.. im slacking like hell.. but i really cannoooooooot be bothered to do lahh.. bah.. hopefully tom is a full of lects day.. dun wanna think..

2003-06-01T05:44:00.000-07:00

lallaa.. feeling so dead.. and nthe week is beginning.. hellllz.. havent done any work.. today out at national library.. like dunno how many pw grps were there as well lah.. got some focus i guess.. and i think im gonna have a pretty low individual score.. but haiz pw is just so irritating.. and then yest reached home so late. but so fun at jenni's house.. j2 + lydia farewell.. :( they are just the greatest seniors i cud wish for.. swimming.. beating coach at mahjongg!! hmms grateful for all the laughter and fun with seniors.. with lyd, pwee dawn joan n stef.. the times ahead will be tough.. but im sure they will be happy times.. :)

mayi sent this today
Happiness is beating the odds. It's falling in love with someone that you think could never even be troubled to notice you (IF JUST!!! hahhaz), and finding out that they feel the same for you as you do for them. It's unexpected flowers, the right song on the radio, your least favorite acquaintance publicly humiliating him or herself in an unexpected fashion (heeeheez). To know ecstasy, we must also know uncertainty; to give out pure joy, the world needs to exceed our expectations.

So, when you go into the world, keep your goals high, and your expectations modest. Somewhere in between lies something positive.

ooh finally met yaxin.. hello yaxiN! hahaz.. so lame.. i mean dee always say stuffs.. then i dunno who right.. oh wells.. dunno what to write liaoz..

2003-05-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

all is not lost.. :) lasted 5 days.. not bad..
ooh qr finally mailed me a letter today so happy to read it.. my grin was like super beeg.. damn funny.. haiz.. miss qr so much.. ay.. last training with seniors.. but technically.. seniors werent there lah.. did toss batting instead.. quite fun.. my mouth must have been on hyper mode or sth.. kept talking non stop.. oh yea and pwee said tt we will be pairing with the guys in june!? oh no!!!!!! its more of like.. poor guys.. heez lalala.. ooo saaw ramli sarip on the bus just now.. quite funky hahaz.. but everyone reading this prob wondering who tt is.. ayz.. shall sleep now... kaoz.. slept at record early time of 10 last night cos i cudnt be bothered to do anything.. its amazing how much time i spend stoning each day.. just cant bring myself to do any work.. and my weeekend is burnt lah.. june hols.. mugging time.. right.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2003-05-28T06:22:00.000-07:00

hmms.. realised how many frenships are being tested in jc.. also realised tt it seems tt its so much easier to make frens nowadays.. i dunno.. its difficult to find tt rare gem tt u click with .. and who clicks with u.. n when i find it.. id never want to let the feeling go.. hmms what wak bah said even before sec one is ringing in my head.. how so very true.. but why dwell in this.. when i have to complain abt GP!!!!!!!!!!!! urks.. the compre which i was sorta relying on SUCKED.. there goes any hope for a pass.. *cross fingers*

lalala stoning's always fun.. stoned in the bus ride home not sad.. but not happy.. just ok with life i guess.. hmms.. gonna have a fun packed weekend.. hopefully it will be fun.. hmms cant wait to tok cok with buds.. haiz.. tom is circuit n lecture day.. haiz.. scattered thots again.. lets go find someone to chat with..

2003-05-27T07:46:00.000-07:00

I haven't slept at all in days it's been so long since we've talked and i've been here many times I just don't know what im doing wrong
what can i do to make you love me what can i do to make you care what can i say to make you feel this what can i do to get you there?
maybe there's nothing more to say in a funny way i'm calm cos the power is not mine i'm just gonna let it fly..

listened to the Corrs just now at surau.. while attempting some PW.. haiz. tom got GP.. sucks. haiz let it be friday already........ oh yea.. i suck at 3rd base.. just really great at siamming the ball.. hmms love this song.. promise me tt ull give faith a fighting chance n when u get the choice to sit it out or dance.. i hope u dance.. lovely lyrics.. ay..

2003-05-26T06:46:00.000-07:00

shoulder is bruised.. weird .. ay today.. i made the stupidest error EVER..... the run is gonna just replay in my head over and over again.. kaoz.. am such a klutz.. n blur person on base.. n i had to bruise my shoulder during warmup.. its blue black now.. -pouts- nvm.. at least i still contributed one measely pt.. in the inning where we scored 10 in a row.. funky. dunno whats wrong today.. the heat or what.. but was happy to be released from class from 1030 and slacked till abt 130... attempted trigo n kinetics but failed miserably.. so drowned it out in more ear blasting lifehouse songs.. i keep dozing off after the 5th song on the cd..

oh yay finally i took fotos.. 9.. bah.. out of 36!! im gonna take forever.. nvm.. shall take more fotos on friday n sat! mebbe ill see pom play..then eat dinner with dee n fung.. funky. oh.. my eyes.. are gone.. im blinded by kirk's bunt signal.. blind blind as a bat.. laughed so hard till i got a stomachache.. heeeeeez.. n got the senior's toot fotos.. goooooodd.. hhahahaz.. lalala.. refuse to do any work as usual.. mebbe ill just read some bio laterz.. theres frenz now!!!.. wonder if i have a new tan line..

2003-05-24T22:41:00.000-07:00

'I am falling into grace to the unknown to where you are and faith makes everybody scared it's the unknown, the don't-know that keeps me hanging on to you '

been blasting lifehouse songs since yesterday.. very comforting to have loud music surrounding me as i hide beneath the sheets... thank god the discman is working.. n finally found earphones.. yay..

...Feeling nothing beneath you, no one cares, nothing matters
Least of all about you
Friends falling away they don't know what to do
Time, years falling away at the expense of your happiness
As you continue to fall, through an empty expanse, down a big black hole
Nothing matters anymore, you don't care, you feel as if you don't exist
Instead you're just lost in a sea of people, laughing, talking, crying
Teardrops falling, as you drown your sorrows
Yet you still feel like you're falling
No one cares what happens to you ...

::just stare quietly at the windy beach.. blasting songs..with my treasures..in peace::

2003-05-24T07:49:00.000-07:00

They paved paradise and put up a parkin' lot
With a pink hotel, a boutique, and a swingin' hot spot
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot

They took all the trees, and put em in a tree museum
And they charged the people a dollar and a half to see them
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise, and put up a parking lot

Hey farmer, farmer, put away your DDT
I don't care about spots on my apples,
LEAVE me the birds and the bees please
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot
Hey now, they paved paradise to put up a parking lot
Why not?

Listen, late last night, heard the screen door slam
And a big yellow taxi took my girl away
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot
Well, don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise to put up a parking lot
Well now, they paved paradise
And put up a parking lot

I don't wanna give it
Why you wanna give it
Why you wanna givin it all away
Hey, hey, hey
Now you wanna give it
I should wanna give it
Now you wanna givin it all away

Hey, paved paradise, put up a parking lot
Paved paradise, and put up a parking lot

how so very true.. love the song.. you don't know what you got till it's gone .. issit gone? ho hum.. shudnt let little things bother me.. shud stay optimistic.. today was fun.. talked a whole lot of crap with dee n qr.. for 4 hours.. hmms.. my treasures.. then cycled and got vcd.. watched 2 weeks notice.. weird how some stuffs were similar.. hurt.. sad.. green eye.. but ooh.. some parts were really lame yet entertaining.. hahaz.. like.. L: ooh water up my nose!.. G: this hankershief is almost clean.... (covers her nose) blow.. L: *blows* hahaz.. ok u just had to watch it.. and kaoz.. they purposely call hugh george.. with an intended presidential joke.. kaoz.. and only kak n i was laughing out heads off.. parents were like.. ermm? whats the joke? but i thot we were kinda slow at getting the joke still.. hahaz.. ..

-vow stands ..-

2003-05-21T06:33:00.000-07:00

bah.. word of the present..
kaoz.. dunno why i felt like i havent played softball in a real long time.. and the field really sucks lah.. its definitely barren land..and did pitching.. pitching can be quite irritating ahhhhhh.. not flicking the ************* ball hahha.. ay and tom is 2.4 can die.. shall attempt to weasle myself outta doing napfa.. but tt means i have to go get docs letter.. how sucky oh yea got my first white slip of the year... for apparently having my blouse too tucked out.. like WHAT!? kaoz.. tt person really scared me to death.. suddenly stopped in front of me.. tts damn unfair ahh.. some pple who even worst than me only kena 2 slips so far.. and im not paikia lor.. if i tuck in any more ill be tooooot mannnn.. grr.

anyway.. i wished i was in the thick of gossips.. i find it weird to just intrude in w/o knowing.. demanding pple to tell me wahts going on.. bah!!!! and hmms. hc band concert on friday.. haiz.. ;)

Walk blindly to the light and reach out for his hand
Don't ask any questions and don't try to understand
Open up your mind and then open up your heart
And you will see that you and me aren't very far apart
'Cause I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way

2003-05-19T05:01:00.000-07:00

lalala.! am in a pretty good mood.. not tt ive started practising any maths for the maths test but who cares!

have been so touched n mushed up since last night.. -swoon- haaaaizzzzz.. theres just no other expression but.. HAIZZZZZZ.. hopeful and wistful.. tho.. unreachable.. i think..

and eyecandy remains eyecandy.. cos .. haiiiiizzzzzz.. hahha..
dee.. qr where are u !! can feel the gushing coming.. :D

2003-05-17T02:42:00.000-07:00

just came back! its sooooooo freaking hot.. sg is so screwed up mannn.. beginning of the term trained in muddy swampy monsoon conditions.. season come only.. freaking HOTNESS.. and like im red ahh.. normally i just turn black.. im actually red.. and stupid pple said i have a specs line.. RIGHT.. LIARS... hahah

well i had a pretty fun time.. i mean even tho i didnt exactly help in getting anyone out since all my stops/covers were like not right.. as in i alwasy collapsed to the ground cos im just real afraid its lobang.. i mean the getting up part shud be faster than running backwards for a ball right? and puisan motivated me again.. after she batted in like the 4th inning we were on a roll.. :) we got pretty psyched up there.. :) and the runs just kept coming in even tho we were already like 2 down.. not bad not bad.. running bases was fun hahhaa.. had to crash into the catcher cos she was squatting on the base.. like how am i supposed to get on the base right? hurt my shin a bit but still fun.... haha.

ohses.. haiz.. i dun like rivalry.. seeing hc n rj pit against each other was super mean ah.. i mean off the field.. all the taunting n bitching.. ok taunting actually doesnt work ah.. when ure in the batter's box its like running a race.. everything's filtered n u dont hear anything... kinda cool.. :) hmm guys won.. damn great ahhh.. great stuff.. esp all the last 3 fly balls n qt's out of no where catch.. perfect man.. -awe- look at me lah.. i cant even throw properly.. hope my batch can do some justice in future matches.. softball roxxx..

2003-05-16T04:59:00.000-07:00

weird.. stupif blog does not publish my entries.. anyway hc match tom.. wish me luck.. or rather wish me to have fun.. :) cos i refuse to feel down because of a jerk.. im serious.. if u werent on the guy's side.. u wud be intimidated and pissed like hell.. like whats so rong abt us? abt me? WTH.. who careeeeess.. ill just have to hit a home run wont i?? (easier said than done duh -- but.. PSYCH UP!) i think our lucky cheer only works for a few innings.. but nvm.. at least it works haha..

lalala.. i got irritated by someone new yest.. quite fun.. i was laughing my head off when i heard abt some interesting stuffs... mwahhaa.. man i was pretty mean ah.. except the person didnt realise it.. or so i think.. SO WHAT.. who loves everyone in this world anyway right.. hmm call me for details.. ;) kk... shall go buy film now.. ciaoz

2003-05-14T09:13:00.000-07:00

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the change to say That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today and then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
A so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

nice song.. :) i was humming it after the match.. haiz.. didnt touch the ball at all again today.. i was definitely less nervous but by the 4th inning i was getting pretty scared.. such tt my eyes were really hot .. plus i didnt get enough sleep cos of stupid bio.. felt so lethargic n had a headache before the match.. iw as more alive after the match than before lah.. cripes ok.. stop complaining abt work. its so depressing.

hmm.. team dinner was so funky.. haha.. really wished i joined softball in sec skl!! -sigh- i wud have enjoyed life a whole lot more i think... im so sad tt i only got to know the seniors fot like what.. 3 months?? tts really pathetic lor.. and ill definitely miss them.. sobs .. haiz starting to rem meida n siti too.. sobs.. really wanna play the league.. hope the other j1s are committed! oh yea.. i really appreciated all the pple who cheered me on today.. so .. very cheered up.. hehee.. like after go team.. pui n halima will be like go ili! heehee.. at least iw as less kanchiong than the jj match haha.. oh well.. think i shud change caps.. see which one can be my lucky charm hahah..

haiz.. never get to talk to hc pple anymore.. wow life actually finally settled down.. even my plans to sit n stone infront of the beach with zz didnt work out.. so sad.. nothing i plan with them ever materializes anymore.. wonder if my lunch date at venezia will work out.. haiz.. as long as its not out of sight out of mind..

2003-05-12T08:10:00.000-07:00

-freakz-
i haev like tonnnnnnnes of work to do but im like super slacking.. haiz.. tom i end at like 510 with training.. i dun have time to study for bio at all lor!! ahhhhhh!!

oh yea.. had my first softball match on sat.. quite funky .. but was quite pale when i learnt i was starting.. think i freaked the seniors too when they heard ive never even watched a match before.. ironically i scored 2 runs w/o even touching a ball.. and i mean it. not while fielding or batting.. i mean the pitcher gave me 2 walks.. like.. kaoz.. meansshe pitched abt 10times to me cos i rem foul-balling once in each inning i played.. was quite relieved when coach subbed me.. as in uyea i guess i wanna play.. but wud prefer sth with less at stake.. learn the experience first.. wish me luck for future matches! :)

2003-05-08T06:35:00.000-07:00

ahhhh today sucked.. oklah not tt bad..
seems tt even tho some days are bad i dun feel tt bad.. been feeling quite optimistic thesse past few days.. not bad.. dunno why..
oh i keep failing stupid tests.. but im too lazy to study stuffs now.. wth.. nvm who cares.. crap today's econs test was so stupid lor.. nothing we studied came out.. sheesh.. they are so horrible!
oh then i was going home today.. started smsing hon.. it was soo funnnyyy.. budden made me think.. mebbe i shud do it.. -cold feet- ay!! help me!!

anyway.. today after like not pitching for 1 month i tried pitching to clarence again.. was amazed i improved.. weird.. perhaps it was a motivatino from watching pui pitch.. :) she is good! and we complete each other haahha.. tt soudned weird..
realised this enttry is so vague.. well.. my gd frens will prob hear the details from my own mouth lah.. :) yay wanna go eat with hc frens toM!! :)

2003-05-04T07:00:00.000-07:00

okay.. esther didnt kill me after all how nice of her.. :)

and yay we finally thot of a freaking topic for pw... haiz. hope it isnt too heavy.. i bet if we do it well it will be impressive.. :)

had sunday training again.. soo tired.. i mean more tired than normal training.. dunno why.. my back will ache and stuffs will ache.. ay.. i seriously think i cannot make it this yr.. im so freaking lousy..the stupid grounders always lobang one!!!!! coach will kill me!!! ill let the team down.. haiz wished i picked up the sport in sec skl.. then i cud have more years to enjoy it.. and more tiem to polish off skills.. i cant even throw the freaking ball properly lorrr.. okok relax ili.. nvm.. :) work at it!! training is fun anyway.

oh.. last night was so entertaining.. blushed n laughed like crazy.. so fun.. reminds me of my addiction to the comp in sec 2.. hai.. i laughed so hard i even hit my head on the table.. oh wells. .:) now no one is online.. and im seirously too tired and lazy to do anything constructive.. i didnt even do anything thru the week.. oh no.. im becoming slacker as days go by.. baddddd.. baddddddd.. better buck up.. (right) shall go find out how to insert music in here now.. hahaz..

2003-05-01T09:26:00.000-07:00

SHITTTTTTTTLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAHHHH i think i dropped my fren;'s bio notes.. super dead liaoz
PLSPLSPLS LET IT BE IN HER FILE.. plssssssssssssss -prays hard- now im in super pissssssseeeeeeedddddd.. aaaaaaaaaarrrrrr i need to talk to someone.. but zz is still doing his econs..... grrrrr.. i feel like screaming.. shit lah shitlah...
esther.. dun kill me!!!!

wahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! ay..ok ili shuddup!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

think calm thots..
kai's house was pretty fun today.. not bad lah.. it seems like a foreshadow of how our future is gonna be like.. garden tea parties.. hahah as if.. then dogs came.. they were pretty cute.. budden i got freaked out when they started getting close to me.. damn wished i cud touch dogs.. speaking of which.. i have no idea where novi is!!!!!! crap.. i dunno where the notes are either.... shitlahhhhhhhhhhh

2003-04-29T06:55:00.000-07:00

lalala.. its so late.. and i havent started on any work at all.. im lazy peeg.. but nvm.. im pretty happy.. :) yay in softball committee.. even tho.. its like QM.. nvm.. haha.. can slack but got some kinda status... -grin- .. i hope i dun have to like wash the equipment all the time.. :) and.. CONGRATS to joan, dawn n pwee.. we will have GREAT YEARS ahead.. :) pwee was saying we cud combine forces.. like i can make a schedule of pple to help bring stuff out n in and those who dun do it will pay a fine to pwee.... hahaz.. man.. i realise both of us always have some kinda money making schemee.... first it was the thing abt having machine to pitch balls in cages for the public to come and bat u know like those in the movies.. :) haha..
oh hmm.. better go do hwk.. lets see
-- gp essay (which i have to freakingly rewrite) maths tut, chem tut, econs essay.. wapiangggg.. gotta get started... -yawn-

2003-04-28T08:24:00.000-07:00

ay.. i had training yest.. work rate was super good.. :) but i got pretty tired.. to the extent tt i got a headache last night and tried going to bed at 11.. ended up in me tossing n turning in bed.. oh i screwed maths quiz today.. aiyai.. shall not care! :) haha.. ironic.. at least gp made up for it.. :) ive realised tt i have lots of pple to turn to when im upset.. as in if i wanna just chat.. i cud just pick up the phone and call my dearest frens.. so grateful for tt.. even tho im a lazy pig and havent done it in a while i find comfort in knowing i can do tt.. mebbe ill get down to calling deedee in afew days.. or later haha.. havent talked to her in a real long time.. miss her... aww.

arsenal drew.. what the shit lah.>! i bet man u bribed them to lose the championship.. haha.. oops.. prob gonna get killed by all the man u supporters.. which is alot.. and i really do have an irritationg for girls who like man u cos of beckham.. its so stupid.. they lose respect from me completely.. haha..oh well.. not like they care in the first place right!? ay.. speaking of which.. ljungberg shud get his hair back to its best SOOON.. it suckssssss.. haha

ooo yea. i hit a home run tt day with machine batting!!!!! but the thing was.. everyone said i didnt step on home base.. im VERY certain i DID!!!!!!!!!! ay.. cripes..

-jgn gentar ada sabar semai di jiwa ku disini mendampingin agar kau mengerti berlarilah kau berlari terbanglah di kau terbang tinggi bumi yg engkau jejaki jgnlah dikau lupai andai ku capai si pelangi akan ku serah kpd mu agar dapat kau mewarnai seluruh hidup nanit yg hitam harus dijauhi jgn disimpan dlm hati putihkan jiwamu dgn kasih suci-

2003-04-24T07:07:00.000-07:00

shucks.. pitchingw as bad super duper bad.. wahtever.. i felt at itsy bitsy better after i read rj's blog. if ure reading this.. thnx for all the amusing quotes.. :) and yea think lit is doing wonders to pple.. life.. just take everything with a pinch of salt.. cos at the end of the day,... its abt becoming a better person.. just onet hing to remind myself...

1) CONCENTRATE.. dun lose ure focus..
2) RELAX
3) LEARN from your mistakes..
4) have fun... :)

this whole experience is after all.. once in a lifetime...

2003-04-22T10:05:00.000-07:00

haiz im slacking today away.. whocares.. have to practise more pitching.. haiz everytime i do my joint aches like nuts.. perhaps im not doing it right.. must must get it right.. must show i can do it!! ay.. all the poems all teh songs.. mean sth to me.. have to live the days w/o regret abt the choice i made.. muz stand up tall and face the consequence of my actions and i must work hard! not liek today.. hahah well at least i went to training AND make up lect. ay.. gonna sleepz noww..

2003-04-18T02:24:00.000-07:00

Never Leave Behind Regrets
Too often we don't realize
what we have until it is gone;
Too often we wait too late to say
"I'm sorry - I was wrong."

Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones
we hold dearest to our hearts;
And we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart.

Far too many times we let
unimportant things into our minds;
And then it's usually too late
to see what made us blind.

So be sure that you let people know
how much they mean to you;
Take that time to say the words
before your time is through.

Be sure that you appreciate
everything you've got'
And be thankful for the Little Things
in Life that mean a lot.

Growing old
is a privilege denied
to many...
Never leave behind regrets

-- Unknown

2003-04-16T08:47:00.000-07:00

Through The Rain"

When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
And I live once again
And I live one more day
And I can make it through the rain
(Yes you can)
You will make it through the rain

2003-04-16T03:57:00.000-07:00

aizzzzz..i hate not 'knowing' tt cute guy!! dammit.. ahaha... i mean i just see his face.. never talk to him before>!... so sad.. anyway what the heck.. i have a million and one make up lectures which i refuse to go for cos i already had the lectures before.. completely unfair!!!!!!! they shud allowpple who have learnt the topic to go for cca.. i seriously need lots of trainign!! ooh i did machine batting yest.. damn cool.. but the vibration is damn painful!! huge ego boost to be able to hit the ball.. like a really really loud -ping- ahha.. but my arm is aching.. nvm.. yay so happy the girls in my class like to look at cute guys..mwahha.. and tt there are actually cute guys.. hhaha.. lame lame.. hmm feel so tired lately.. all i want to do is sleep.. aishh.. cant rem what i wanted to type.. oh wells.. to serene n em n yun n selene jiayou future counsillors!
oh ya arsenal playing man u tonight!!!!! or rather tom 230am.. i want to watch but i have a feeling ill be kinda bored to death.. im not THAT big on english football.. and arsenal is so freaking not consistent is scary!.. oh no.. better not gloated on tom.. *cross fingers*

2003-04-13T08:47:00.000-07:00

arm is aching like nuts! training 3 days in a row.. i kinda like training. :) shall be as enthu as the seniors! well at least try.. :) -grin- and must must must train to pitch consistently.. :) aiz so many grins.. when in actual fact life isnt very rosy righ tnow.. well everyone's i guess isnt tt great either. budden being a 2nd intaker SUCKS.. i mean like its just the situation's fault.. evyerone already has each other and they know where they fit in with each other.. but.. :( i dun.. gonna take a long time hopefully not too long ukknow what i hate the most!? when its the period of time where i need to hang out before training or someone to go home with.. i feel so awkward.. i thot i knew enough pple in rj but apparently i dont.. hmms tt day stoning in the canteen was pretty ok.. obviously itll be some time before anyone shares any juicy gossip with me.. :) i understand.. but i miss gossipping n i seriously need to know more pple! like pple will be saying.. this this name.. and ill be like who the hell is tt? aiyaiyai...
n mum says i spend too much time with hc frens.. oh well.. i feel comfy with them of coz i will wanna hang out with them right? urrrrrg novi keeps stepping on my chem notes!!!! notti cat.. gotta have more self control !! gotta come out of my comfort zone! gotta do what i gotta do... haiz.. life sucks.'

oh yea i just realised tt i say lalala unconsciously like ALL THE TIME.. esp during softball i dunno why.. weird.. aiz.. everyone isnt online.. gd fer me but.. so sad ok xingni just came in.. aiz mebbe i shud read somemore chem..

2003-04-09T08:29:00.000-07:00

lalala.. first day of skl like wth.. wore the uni.. i CANNOT believe they called me lian.. shall box all of them.. :( -pout- hmm today was ok.. realised i need to revise econs.. n essays suck.. n lotsa tests coming up. (i think) .. haiz.. so sian.. then nationals are prob soon tho im completely NOT ready fer them wiat.. im not even in the team!! haiiiiiizzzz.. shall go try out touch rug n hurdles fer fun.. nothing much to say actually except id rather stone at home than use my brain.. :) to all pple who actually wanna go to skl.. ure madd... !! cripes..

2003-04-02T02:52:00.000-08:00

ahhh.. my hands are trembling right now.. after effects of biking with hon n raihan ... supposed to meet them along the mrt tracks but there was a huge canal!!.. what the.. so i took one big round.. and met them half way near my house then had to turn back cos we were going sembawang beach which had a whole lot of SLOPES... didnt help tt my bike is abt 10 years old haha.. made creaking noises and in the beginning the gears were giving me problems but overall not bad.. quite fun.. went to a relatively nicer beach.. :) to just sit around fer awhile.. haiz.. next time i shudnt bike with 2 FIT pple.. waliu can die.. was like walking the slopes & feeling a bit bad tt they had to wait fer me.. oklah not as bad as huifang the other time at east coast!!.. haha lalalla.. realised how fun biking is.. esp today when the sky was real pretty. aww oo i found a reall nice song..
http://peachpatch.com/loveof.html <<-- go there.. the song plays on the site so switch on yr speakers.. i lovee ittt

"Love Of My Life" -- Jim Brickman

I am amazed
When I look at you
I see you smiling back at me
It's like all my dreams come true
I am afraid
If I lost you girl
I'd fall through the cracks
And lose my track in this crazy lonely world

Sometimes it's so hard to believe
When the nights can be so long
And faith gave me the strength
And kept me going on

You are the love of my life
And I'm so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me
I guess this is how it feels
When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are my love
Love of my life

Now here you are
With midnight closing in
You take my hand as our shadows dance
With moonlite on your skin

I look in your eyes
I'm lost inside your kiss
I think if I'd never met you
About all the things I'd missed

Sometimes it's so hard to believe
When a love can be so strong
And faith gave me the strength
And kept me going on

You are the love of my life
And I'm so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me
I guess this is how it feels
When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are my love
Love of my life

You are the love of my life
And I'm so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me
I guess this is how it feels

When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are my love
My angel in the night
You are my love
Love of my life
Love of my life

2003-03-30T15:58:00.000-08:00

oi to nameless pple who did the quizzes, pls tell me who u are.. im like.. who is nobody??

i was being bored today.. cos noone else is online at 8am in the morning.. anyway I decided to do a yahoo search on my own name..yes i saw the link to this webby.. then i saw 2 more links of pple's names ili!!! im so pissed.. i thot my name was unique.. mumble grumble.. one of them happens to be my rg junior.. was quite shocked haha.. oh yea and ili ili is a name of a hawaiian instrument.. sth like 2 stones which u knock against each other.. my god.. my name is so primitive.. oh haha look at this -->Olowalu Beach - Ka'ili'ili Beach. Olowalu, meaning "many hills.. haiz ooh and look at this --> Ilisapesi : female : (origin) Tonga : (meaning) blessed one : (similar names) Ilisa, Ili.. hoho my name is tonga-ish.. budden right i was asking mom what my name means like when they chose in meaning like in arab or sth.. its -a gift- so they are somewhat true.. cool.. tt my name is true from like diff. origins.. :) lemme go find hazwani.. yea yea im boliao!!!! ok.. cant find any.. oh wells.. will go find for other pple then. .:)

sehati sejiwa (nurul ajai)Bersahaja bersanding
Berbincang hati ke hati
Merangkai-rangkai ucap
Menuju di lubuk jiwa... jiwa

Ini yang dikatakan
Pemberian Yang Esa
Beza pijak kau dan aku
Bukan penghalang untuk cinta
Kasih... aku cinta

Diriku dan diri mu
Bagai sama rasa
Saling cinta dan menyintai
Untuk selamanya

( korus 1 )
Sehati dan sejiwa
Ini yang perlu disematkan
Dalam hati mu kawan
Kekalkannya selamanya
( Selamanya )

( korus 2 )
Sehati dan sejiwa
Harus ada pada semua
Rasakan cinta suci
Rasakanlah kesucian
Yang ada dalam hati
oh...

Pegangkan janjimu
Simpan dalam hati
Untuk azimat cinta kita oh...
Takkan ada siapa
Yang dapat menghalang
Cinta ini oh kekasih ku

2003-03-30T00:08:00.000-08:00

ho hum..
ive got uninvited guests reading these entries.. well duh...
anyway peeps whom i cant be bothered to send to yr emails pls test yrself to see how much u know me by those buttons u see on the right --------->>>>

The 1st one is relatively easier for those who were in my hc class.. cos they failed the more general one miserably.. hahaz.. only 1 person passed it!! :) I'm glad to say I've passed everyone's so far.. tho not with a fantastic mark.. but enough to say i know my friends :) but then again.. these tests arent a measure of how much u know someone.. knowing someone's crappy stuff is different from knowing someone emotionally n what or how they think.. so to peeps who failed.. i luv ya still and i know u guys -know- me.. :)

oh ya.. when i was saying abt unvited eyes.. my for-now classmates called and asked me to reconsider movingto d.. i said i didnt mind.. n somehow i dunno why i said i mind in the first place.. i mean its not like i made firm frens yet.. n theres someone in my adopted og in tt class too.. so.. wish me luck ... and i guess i understand how the e people feel for their class pple to get rrandomly ejected outta the class.. i mean i wanted so much for my 2 hc classmates to get posted back into the same class.. haiz.. 2 years.. gonna go by real fast.. need to settle down even faster.. need to revise even more.. n i need to have fun..
life sucks..
stupid virus..
hope to play soccer tom.!

2003-03-27T01:54:00.000-08:00

Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself

Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else

I wanna be somebody else, yeah

--tts how i feell right now....

2003-03-26T21:49:00.000-08:00

-whine-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just remembereed what i dont like abt rj... :( i want to go back to hc... my class.. ok fine i dunno them yet.. but they feeeel soooo cold... sooooooooo cold... towards me.. i want to cry already someone tell me to be strong .. tell me everythings gonna be fine.. now i rem why i cried ever so often in rg.. .:( wish me luck ill get at least a gd fren in class... otherwise im happy diana this st nic girl in my adopted og is soo nice.. haiz i need to get settled.. n i want to be involveed in faction but i dunno what the hell they do so how!? and i suck at interviews.. :( -whine- im scared...

2003-03-25T06:17:00.000-08:00

heyss

2nd day at rj..not bad.. orientation was boring.. well sort of haha.. i crashed em's OG.. and decided to stay with themm eehes.. evil me but waht the hell i mean waht abt all the unclaimed pple right... well i had quite a fun time with em's og.. went to watch adaptations which was completely weird.. i mean its like this unknown movie tt nicholas cage acts in.. its like i dunno theres just no adjective .. its.. weird!!!! haha.. yea my vocabsnot vv wide.. tts why my english n GP sucks lor.. die laready.. ok well it was basically abt this screen writer who thinking of how to adapt some freaking bk abt orchids.. ladida.. then some kinda drama n funny lines come in
few pple die.. tada ends.. weird right!?? n i think i find it pretty boggling how its actually the REAL screen writer of the movie who is writing abt himself as a screen writer WHO is writing abt himself.. mindboggling eh!? okok..

at the beginning of the day felt a bit sian n left out in vals og.. so i actually almost teared when i thot abt the hc pple aww.. haiz.. now they have new intakers and i want to be with them feeling so freaking extra.. whatever. haha.. shall just have my own fun.. !!

and i suck at softball.. dunno what cca to join already.. ahhhhhh help me.. my cca pts die liaoz.. tell me work hard pplez...
need the motivation.. need the initiative.. i need to make stuff happen for myself!????!!!! how!???!?! aiyaiyai..

2003-03-23T08:08:00.000-08:00

haiz.. everything so sad today.. or rather on sunday.. the part where we paarted was awful.. as in i felt like i was losing sth when i saw all the expressions on the faces n hugged all the girls.. i dunno.. when im around the hc peeps i feel pretty happy.. accepted.. a really warm feeling that I never seemed to have in rg.. nono im not saying my rg frens are lousy.. you guys rock.. but i must say i have gotten pretty close to zz n kenny n qianru n xingni more than i have than most of my rg frens.. was choosing rj a wrong chioce? no.. i must have no regrets.. i know ive thought through my decision and i cant simply stay cos of the people..

zz.. i hope u read this.. I really really miss you already.. I feel so comfortable calling you daddy.. and ure always there for me.. thank you.. means a lot more to me than you think.. love u lots.. n give kenny a hug for me !!!! my dearest darling brother you will always be

2003-03-22T04:28:00.000-08:00

yay posting results today!!! was so relieved to see the results..
hmmm.. stupid sis sat on my specss.. so pissed.. so now using my spare ones while my parents are bringing those to the optician.. haiz..

oh gonna have class outing tom.. at my house haha.. oh wait reminds me i have to go n sms everyone.. haizz.. i have a feeling its gonna be a flop.. i mean whats there to do at my house.. i guess i cud go rent vcd.. but watching tv is so anti social.. :) unless its a dman funny movie like stupid austin powers.. :) i rem tt time when the third lang pple came over we watched both episodes.. while eating pizza.. quite fun :) hmm oh yea we can play stupid musical chairs like kak liyana's bday party.. it was pretty funny.. :) sigh i think i better get started on smsing.. gonna miss the hc peeps..

2003-03-19T10:07:00.000-08:00

sleepines.. its 2am in the morning buti dont exactly feel like sleeping ok mebbe after this..
hmm slept at 3am on tues.. 1+ during chalet n now 2+ today.. haiz.. went shopping today guilty but happy tt i bought those jeans n sandals they are so pretty!!!!! i better take care of themm..
haiz.. felt mushy before i left home.. then felt better went gossiping n shopping but then reached home n listened to mp3s n felt mushy again ... :) oh well.. its not too bad now..

ooo adeline... i saw the pictures on yr web.. dun think he is very cute anymore.. still cute but hmm nvm..

hmm my frens sent the lover's concerto song to me by kelly chan.. like it vv much.. dunno why.. vv high pitch.. -

how gentle is the rain tt falls softly on the meadow birds high upon the trees serenade the clouds with their melody
... the bright colours of the rainbow some magic from above made this day for us just to fall in love
you hold me in yr arms n say once again u love me and tt ure love is true everything wil be just as wonderful
now i belong to you from this day until forever just love me tenderly n ill give to u everypart of me
dont ever make me cry all those lonely nights.. always be true to me keep this day in yr heart eternally
aww..

2003-03-17T00:16:00.000-08:00

haiz.. havent been blogging..
its the hols..just finished doing cream puffs.. yum.. too creamy tho.. haha
was supposed to meet exclassmates this morning but i overslept oh well...
downloaded lotsof nice songs now tt i have broadband.. yay!
i miss my hc frens already.. i always wantto be around them... i wanna be around pple but i dun exactly what to do when im with them.. hahaz.. its ok.. we all ahve fun just stoning n zoning out.. :( i miss them...
hmm should i study? mebbe just a little bit later hehez.. anyway i found a real nice song.. in malay.. i feel so relaxed when i listen to it.. kasih suci by amy mastura..perjalanan masih jauh, harus kau tempuh,
ku disini memerhati, tanpa rasa sangsi,
jangan gentar ada sabar, semai dijiwa,
ku disini mendampingi, agar kau mengerti

** berlarilah kau berlari terbannglah dikau terbang tinggi
bumi yang engkau jejaki janganlah dikau lupai

* andai ku capai,si pelangi akan ku serahkan kepadamu
agar dapat kau mewarnai seluruh hidup nanti...
yang hitam harus dijauhi jangan disimpan dalam hati
putihkan jiwamu dengan kasih suci,,,

kuterima dirimu dengan seadanya dalam suka dalam duka kau tetap cahaya
ku bersyukur pada yang esa punya segala-galanya
sederhana tapi yang sempurna

soo nice.. :)

2003-03-03T07:23:00.000-08:00

wow.. olevel results actually over
i was kinda too scared to write
but iguess i did pretty well.. not the best but good enough.. hopefully i can make it to rj.. i hope i dont jinx it.. sigh..
wish me luck!! for everything..
in life..

2003-02-19T07:21:00.000-08:00

talk to mee..
anyway.. ok nothing much to write.. gonna have STJ on sunday.. n the class sort of wants to go to the beach.. mebbe we will go east coast on sat.. :) ill be more than glad to see you guys there.. oh yea the guys want to see stars agaiin.. so sweet.. someone suggested bringing candles n radio for the romantic effect to watch the sunset.. :) hahaz..

haiz.. wanted to drop by rj today.. instead i became vv lethargic from the last 2 periods of malay... crap.. i thot i didnt have malay.. so sad.. n hc ends the latest on weds.. so sad! so jealous... i have new specs btw... so blue n squarish.... a bit tight.. suppose get used to it.. haiz.. i have a horrible bio test coming up.. carbo, protein, lipids.. essays summore.. so sian.. speakingg of which i have econs test tom.. cripes... this might be getting a bit stressful... oh well...

2003-02-11T05:36:00.000-08:00

i am so sick.. for the past 4 days i have been lying on my bed trying to sweat out my freaking fever.. but it keeps coming back.. now i havea pretty horrible cough n flu to go with it.. yesyes im in a bad mood.. alsoc cos im trying to squeeze my head for ideas for my angel n mortals.. when im already broke.. n i hate feeling left out in skl.. i mean i will be so behind in work.. so sadz.. arrrgg still feel so awful.... *whine* and none of my chat frens from hc are online.. so i cant update myself with gossip.. :) i hope i didnt miss much of tt.. man i was knocked out so bad by the cough medcine so bad last night i even missed out on my gossip session.. the first for the year mann.. hahaz..
hmm... what to get for my classmates.. i dont want to use even more of my money n i dont want to waste time to the shopping centre AGAIN.. but i wanna get sth for fun.. fine fine i will get them sweets and a note then.. :) *dry cough -- wince* V-day is ard the corner.. how depressing... hahaz.. i must sound so despo tt joon n another fren trying to find someone for me.. ahahaz.. whatever... as deedee would put it.. yet another year of -in celebration of singlehood- wonder how many more to go.....
oh yea my frens did some fortune telling with me.. not bad.. my future husband is gonna be in order of amt 1) rich 2) loving 3) good-looking 4) jealous.. yay.. i can join the taitai club then.. :) okok i think i will go make some prezz... toodles

2003-02-06T06:35:00.000-08:00

arrrr just got back from softball training.. looks like im destined to be in the sport.. otherwise coach will kill mee.. he will kill me even more if i ever went to rj... arg wah damn full now.. haiz.. chatting with my classmates again.. been sleeping at 1230 after chatting everyday for the past week... so funny.. we have a hey hey gang.. cos the guys area always going hey hey.. or all wrong already..damn funny.. and i learnt nwe chi words cos our gang has ranking... theres lao da.. n bao biao.. i gave one guy lo ser.. he didnt get it.. :) anyway.. anyone gonna do hssrp? i wanna do but i alrady have so many things.. and i need to build up the courage to go for cheerleading!!!!!. sighh i think i shud do some work while chatting now.. toodles

2003-02-03T08:26:00.000-08:00

arg realised it isnt trinity.. oh wells..
mann ive been a bad girl these past few days.. reach home so late.. first send off fren to sydney.. reached home at like 11.. but had a nice bus trip back with pompi.. like i realised arhh im definitely more comfortable speaking in a smaller group or one on one is better cos pple wont rattle on in chinese ... its getting very irritating now as pple continue to speak in chi w/o any translations.... we were at our ct teacher's house when they started joking ard in chi the whole day.. felt sad and left out sometimes... sigh.. the horrors of being in hc when ure a malay..

-happy cny-

my cny wish: for sg to be more malay-friendly... :þ

2003-01-27T06:31:00.000-08:00

mymy i have been writing alot abt softball.. zzz.. quite sleepy right now.. and ive been late for skl twice already... haaiizzz anyway just wanted to write abt the scandals in my class.. they are hilarious!! esp in maths class today.. :) eugene kept saying he didnt know how to do the maths sums for the hell of it.. and then the teacher was like... 'who doesnt know??' and the guys answered shawn!! shawn doesnt know... cos shawn wasnt even in class... he is in pakistann.... :) oh and then my gd fren n i started pairing pple off for fun... and in the end we managed to dig out a crush out of my fren.. mwahhaha... now we have 2.5 proper scandals... vvv interesting.. :) oh oh we have a love triangle!! haha.. oh melinda if u read this... i will miss u!!!>.. darn why cant i go trinity with u and graduate before the guys even get into U.. :) makes me regret not signing up for UWC>... speaking of which.. i wonder if hwying got it...

and yay val is gonna go kayaking with me... at least we can go for expeditions after we pass the 2 star course.. :)
ciaoz,
-crushless- or hmm... -uncrushable-

2003-01-24T22:24:00.000-08:00

ladida... i met serene n em and stef n inna n preethi yesterday... btw what was serene doing at hc??? she was walking i was like... tt ooks like serene.. impossible lahh.. alone summore.. then... she waved.! too bad coach was talking to us... he is funnily scary.. or scarily funny whichever u like it.. and i cant flick the F*king ball..... wahhhhh... ok fine coach said i can catch but so what..throwing is the most imp... and i realised i am pretty slow when it comes to shuttle run.. lost to some person who doesnt even play sports.. D*MN humiliated... j-en can throw but she is afraid to catch so i was telling her tt we should be close by so i can pass the ball to her to throw :) we should be considered 1 player... hahaz.. oh yea and stef n jan are apparently in rj softball... we made a whole lot of noise cos we were like SHIT.. ure my rival!! but actually rj's softball quite slack... vj is like the hugest rival.. apparently.. urgg cant believe jan is in the softball team.. nvm can -kikc rhe tbtu-!! mwahah..

oh i reached home at like 1140 last night... cos i missed the stupid bus... in the end meida n i started talking bout more stuff and rg track how it has become so slack we might go down on wednesday's to coach them for like CIP hours or sth.. :) hahaz.. plus i am having junior treat senior later at novena.. how crappyy... they said our class is the guaiest of the history of 71.. :) what to say..

oh yea and how come i wasnt told abt the surprise party??? ok fine jo said sth abt going to ems house.. fuzz too but i didnt know it was a party!!!!! oh yea plus i had tonnes of hmwk tt day.. i had bio tutorial which were like essays... i did one at 11... then i dozed off.. woke up at 3 and did the other.. it was so crappy but at least the teacher isnt gonna mark it... got a bit pissed tt she didnt even check whether we did it but haiz.. for my own good right??

oh yea.. and my MORTAL N MY ANGEL.. knows whoi am... so sadddddd... i am like the only person who supports arsenal so like they made the link... arrrrrrrggggg... summore they are like best frens... they sharred one paper to write to me!! and they gave me sweets to eat during lectures..hahaz.. quite cool but ironically dunno who my mortal is.>!!

ok i think i made up for 6 days of not blogging so shall stop wasting my time ... hmmmm.. pray tt i dont get a worst result for Os... tt is like in 1 month... haizz.. (why do they call it first 3 months when its 2 anyway?) oh yea and if anyone meets hon... tell her tt valerie has a msg abt the 2 star canoeing course from me.... and tell em tt there are msges for hon n joon in the NU skin bag... cya

2003-01-19T02:41:00.000-08:00

i realised everyone is writing... except moi.. im writing abt spas things.. so i shall talk more abt skl.. lets seee full skl day starts tom i dont understand why monday has to be the latest day... sigh oh yea had like full softball training on friday.. cudnt wake up on sat...i was absolutely sore!! to make things worst these are like parts which i have never used for track....so its in real bad condition... it like ended at 8pm... waliuu.. at least i might make the team by default haha

oh oh!! i beat a guy!! no no not beat up.. but we did sth like shuttle run and i ran faster than the newby guy!! hahahahah so funny and pt was pretty light except tt i was in a bad condition.. :) sigh i dont know which day to pon training so i can watch the sec 1s do hurdles.. soi can laugh haha so i can teach.. :) how knd of me.. dont really want to see the meany guyss.. so i dont really wanna go for wed's combined training.. but i dont really wanna see the coach which means friday.. haiyaz.. but if i dont go then j-en will learn more stuff than me then i will be at par with peiying.. haiyaz... see lah.. which day arhhhhh...

arhhhhhhhhhhh im a bit pissed.. theres no one to crush... hey someone in rj.. like set me up cann.... :) haha call me despo...arrrrgg cannnnottt.. i dont want to be despo.. eekss mumble grumble... see you guys soon.... being scatterbrained right now

2003-01-13T07:11:00.000-08:00

siggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im on a rebound when i havent even bounded.. i need rehabilitation for jealousy and a need for someone.... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrgg.. im serious not joking.. pple should start punching me when i think of tt thing tt i shouldnt be thinking abt!>. sigh so complicated now i cant even tell anyone.. groan ho hummm..my ecas all clash.. sigh.. oh yea the list is... elddfs, sensorium vale, canoeing and softball... gonna die ... ironically im not doing vigorous pe lessons mwaha.. i tell u their pe is so tiring i cud die.. not tt ive tried it but our first pe lesson next week requires us to run 3km whats their prob!!!!!

sigh.. lemme try n remember what words i learnt after reading TIME... theres acrimony... trepidation, narcissus, ubiquitous.. im sure there were more.. oh wells..
this is boring.. i shall go vent and work on my rehabilitation in my diary.. cyaz

2003-01-10T23:05:00.000-08:00

hmm orientation is officially over.. hmm i actually know someof the massdances considering i ponned almost all.. :)
and i sang chi songs!!! i do agree tt they sound quite nice just dunno what it means except like hua cheng, wo men, etc.. :) like real basic chi.. i thought the way they lit up the campfire was supperrr duperr cool.. my mouth was like open in amazement the entire time haha.. n my fac is quite cool! and ok i take back abt the guys in my class not being cute... :) they are coool.. seeing them do the formations, pyramids and having their lil discussions were real funny.. and im making frens.. so happy.. i think i wont transfer out if i cud.. will just have to ignore the chi partss.. its quite ok i suupose even tho some of my classmates talk quite a bit of chi.. i sorta understand them... hehe ill probably improve my chi exponentially if i stay here for 2 years... ho hums.. signed up for so many ecas... nvm.. shall have some fun.. and make even more frens! hopefully dont get too tired and not be able to do work.. haiz gonna dieeee still miss u guys. and i want a reunion and pls wrtite in the tagboard otherwse there is hardly any reason why i still write in here.. might as well disappear into thin air..

2003-01-06T06:45:00.000-08:00

arg crap stupid blog is irritating me btw do scroll all the way down from now on to give comments cos enetation and tag board are giving me a headache....

2003-01-06T05:46:00.000-08:00

man i miss raffles culture.. my class is so quiet.. but ok i suppose.. theres a softballer!! woohooo!!!!
tinky's class is so much cooler.. darn. and its not like the guys in my class are cute.. *groan* wait.. make tt any... in general.. urgg.. and guys from my senior class have a huge crush on my classmate this petit girl called ammily.. cool spelling... :)
tom orientation finally starts.... thank god.. but its so short..@! dammit 4 measely days... and my class are so not on about getting dirty.. ok fine not many pple are and its not like i am completely happy but its pretty fun.. our councillor warned us of getting dandruff... u know flour.. and the ridiculous part is they made US buy the flour and ketchup... cheapskates...
and our councillor damn cool.. and paikiah.. half swedish! yay! (go freddie!)
sigh.. never thot id actually miss raffles culture.. nvm.. must have lots of reunions! sobs..

2002-12-31T23:45:00.000-08:00

YUCKKK... ARHHHHHHHHHH YUCKKKKKKKKKK arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
no one will understand unless they were at ems house yesterday YUCLK!!!!nono not ems house but YUCKKKKKK..... lets do some maths formula... theres A theres B theres C.. like this...
i am freaked by A + B and A + C.. thanks to honlyN! esp by A + B.. no wonder D, E, F etc. do not like A.. and to think i should have known this 2 years ago... mygosh im WOLS... and val was the one who came out of the bathroom 30s after midnight!
but hon.. truthfully thanks for waking me up!!.. :)

2002-12-26T07:21:00.000-08:00

back from malaysia!
abit bored now.. just realised the freaking arsenal match is now..
anyway this morning went to get endorsement form to be changed from nj to hc!! yay.. thank goodness the skls are only across the road and my dad came too.. had to go hc then nj then hc again.. imagine if it was from vj to rj or sth..
oh they called me when i was in the bus from genting to KL.. woke up in a fright hahaz...but a pleasant fright

well the last day in KL was great for shoppinh.. our hotel was next to the mall as in its literally named THE MALL which had like super huge discounts.. i bought 3 shirts for an average of 10 sing dollars.. an umbrella (well bkt timah is a water catchment area!!) for like 15 ringgit.. nice cool shorts for 14 ringgit .. hmm and before tt i bought a red bag for 25 sing.. getting used to the colour.. so bright!! and a watch tt was like 3 for 50 ringgit.. and our hotel in KL was 100X better than the one in genting.. the sink was outside for goodness sakessssss.. ohh and my aunt had a nicer bigger room which had uncharged internet access!!! except my sis hogged it!.. oh and did u know like afte rshopping in like 3 separate mega malls.. i cudnt finda single nice reasonable price sportsbra.. JL has a much better range.. shall go there before skl starts..

haiz.. skl is starting prob wont see most of u classmates in hc.. aw.. mostly 413 pple are in hc... nvm... must keep in contact and val! must go 2 star kayaking course soon yes... if i have time i will tell all the mishaps i had in KL.. man didnt know 4 days could be sooo long.. like 15 mishaps happened in 2 days.. craap.. funny nevertheless..
and now i have a freaking sore throat from eating too much nuts.. funny enough my cat is having a sore throat too.. :) she has a hoarse meow... how cute... but filthy!!

wont bore u any longer.. and for my own entertainment can u pls say sth abt my blogs.. otherwise this gets pretty boring...........'
happy hols.. while it lasts...

2002-12-18T08:34:00.000-08:00

you wont admit you love me and so how am i ever to know u only tell me perhaps perhaps perhaps a million times i asked u and then i asked u over again u only answer perhaps x3 if u cant make your mind up we will never get started and i dont wanna wind up being parted broken hearted so if u really love me say yes but if u dont dear confess pls dont tell me perhaps x3 ladida.......

d need to talk with u again why did u go away all our times together just felt like yesterday id never thought i see a single say w/o u the things we take for granted we can sometimes lose if i promise not to feel this pain will i see u again will i see you again chorus do u remember how it was when we never seemed to care the days went by so quickly cos i thought ud always be there nits hard to let u go but i know i must try i feel like ive been cheated cos we never said goodbye n if i promise not to feel this pain will i see u again will i see u again cos time will pass me by maybe ill never learn to smile but i know ill make it through if you wait for me say u wait for me and all the tears ive cried no matter how i tried they never bring u home to me wont u wait for me in heaven cos i miss u so and i need to know will u wait for me chorus --> id never thot kavana's song actually was pretty nice.. its similar to tt phil collins song ...

2002-12-14T04:10:00.000-08:00

yay passed the 1 star kayaking course! surprise surprise.. yea yea
wwateva.. it was ok.. boring + funny boring cos we kept stopping so irritating.. and the current was so freaking strong tt everytime we kayaked we will still be at the red buoy... yay didnt have a specs tanline cos didnt wear my specs! haha while honhon was being ever so cool in her sunglasses.. tho they were slightly too big for her...... hate capsizing! hate rescue.. for a moment i thought i wudnt pass cos i cudnt do them properly had to capsize like 3 times cos stupid idiot instructor (whom hon says his name means genius) thot i came out from the wrong side.. well he doesnt explain well enough!!!!! *pout*
but then.. i thought the main instructor was small boy cute cute liddat.. kinda adorable heehee... pix is in the 412 egroups thingy.. cant really see much cos my scanner doesnt work so used my vid cam to record the foto.. plus he is like hwying or hon.. smile and his eyes are completely gone... haha
and the couple in our group was pretty fun too.. dinosaur and buffalo whatta couple... :)

i wanna go for expeditions dammmmmmmittttt....
oih and my arms ached so bad when i woke up.. just goes to show how unfit i am.. though i wasnt tired at all tt day.. sigh......
oooooh and the twins got eliminated from AMZING RACE>.. heehee yay!
oooh i went to the website.. there the host will upload diff pix of diff countries.. all the others were of nice nice scenery.. and what was sg's??? it was all jamie... whatshersurname... like WHATEVER.......
ok gtg ..

2002-12-08T17:06:00.000-08:00

yay ive got a new place to host all my pixx............
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<------------------------------------ under quikshots.. :)
well in the first place shall go get shots... havent even developed alma mater fotos yet cos film not finished!hopefully finish by today.. meeting frens to go jurong east swimming complex... hope it doesnt rain...

and going m'sia: gonna do stupid things like visit uncle's house.. which i think is gonna be quite big.. he is supposedly very rich.. and prob going KLCC to shop... yay (i need a new bag.. new shoes... more t-shirts.....) and going genting n sunway lagoon to indulge in stupid rides..... sigh... hope it isnt lousy.. at least its pretty cheap.....
anyone wants anything??

2002-12-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

nobody ever reads my blog!!
or so i think...
anyway.. had a quite fun hari raya after inviting hon n tinky over! to eat up my food and entertain me with daidee... :)
thinking of doing it again on thursday.. everyones invited this thursday as we munch play cards and scream at the old people and bitchy flo in the amazing race!! :) mwaha.. just tell me .. :)

hmmm.. does anyone have any idea for prezs... i wanna do sth but its gotta be cheap easy to do or sth cherishable :) sth for u guys... awwwww... thinking of not leaving hc.. if i get in in the first place.. so sob sob.. must have lotsa lotsa reunions BUT must not talk about people i dunno..

oooooooooooooooooooo... p/s i am building up a huge interest in sth in hc...... heeheeheee.... *sly look* try squeezing it outta me if theres a next time we play truth &.. truth... :)
happy holidays...!!

2002-11-26T06:39:00.000-08:00

hum drum
lets see... i finished with my 300 piece jigsaw puzzle tt will only be finished in a fewmonths time cos i lost a stupid piece but getting a replacement from japan.. at least it is for free
then i cant continue with my sewing... cos i lost the freaking needle which is 10x the size of a normal one... so the freaking thread wont go through a normal needle.. haizz
and im kinda broke so i dont think i will buy prezs for pple.. maybe just make cookies... and i dont even have time to do

feeling pretty empty.. i wished i knew more pple.. feeling bored and lonely right noww
sorta cant wait for alma mater.. but all the anticipation and hype normally ends up in boredom and utter disappointment so cant be botherd to spend extra thought about it not to mention tt we are doing the ketchup dance! eeks haha.. shall try not to be negative
i tell u i am gonna be super plain and conservative compared to everyone else there but who cares.. .:)

and arsenal lost again.. bleahhh
thinking of gettting rid of ljungberg's foto from my wallet...

2002-11-20T09:15:00.000-08:00

haiz.. it is almost over... :)
but suddenly theres this emptiness.. still i do want to do a lot of things which i doubt will get done in the end
ahhh i love my book - the power of one... but i want to watch stephen dorff box!! serene.. if u read this.. pls help me get the vcd!! theres like only 1 at the esplanade library sobs.. its super cool show.. little boy is cute too oooo and stephen dorff looks like ljungberg woohoo. ...:)
oh i finally watched harry potter today.. quite cool.. and i didnt even watch the first one or read hehez
and if anyone is bored.. i reccommend u to download 'the way you look tonight' by tony bennett it was the song in my best fren's wedding.. i love it when the mulroney guy sang to julia roberts.. his voice is super deep and knee-shaking... :)
what would i give..... *forlorn look* hehez
my my i am like gushing over everything.. ooo and i tried on a marilyn-monroe-like dress.. hilarious.. but i decided it was pretty see-through :)
yay doing more shopping and laughing at juniors train at east coast and tamp mall tom.. technically today since its 1.09 in the morn... okie dokie.. shall mebbe read chapter 14 until i doze offf..........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2002-11-03T09:09:00.000-08:00

ho hum.. everyones talking abt prom dresses and makeoverss... ewww i mean i think its fun but i wont go for a makeover..
experimenting is always fun.. :) besides i dont wanna waste my $ for one silly night... ya sure ill be the ugliest there then but who cares.. :)
tho i would like to see the transformation(s) hehez.. hmmm i realised tt the way we walk are very unladylike.. hoho wonder how hon will walk in a dresss.. n heels.. hehs.. n val too... oh i saw the lianne photo in 17.. the outfit made her look fat tho
haiz at this rate i wont be able to go trying on dresses for fun... maybe i shud still shop for a top for my skirt.. my top feels kinda tight and warm.. yea arsenal finally won... by a sad sad own goal..

2002-10-31T06:38:00.000-08:00

ho hum.. dont want to talk about jcs.. still dont know where to go and haha i might not even get into rj or hc.. so wateva..
haiz and football is just as depressing.. not that i didnt expect arsenal to go and try to beat the losing streak... i think maybe the newly uninjured pple are interupting the flow of the game.. and henry n wiltord are like losing it... so wateva.. everygame last season my sis n i bet tt they would lose haha.. we are starting to do tt again.. :)

hmmm.. i want to watch sweet home alabama n someone like you.. romantic comedy... after just completing the RI paper 1, i am conclusively an immature reader... :) haha so what.. i like pleasantries.. maybe tttts why i suck at english ... i was trying to calculate how much i need to get for each paper to get at least an A2.. its in reach.. but urhh.. i hope the markers are lenient..

list of things to do after Os and hari raya
1) Reunion with ex-classmates ( i dont mean u)
2) Canoeing
3) Get the vcd for someone like u and hopefully sweet home alabama is still playing
4) shop for prez for pple i like
5) oooh try on prom dresses for fun!
6) track sec 4 farewell
7) sleep over at sis' hostel n make use of facilities for freee!
oooh lets send off the french pple to the airport after alma mater yes yes?? itll be fun! but actually i have the phobia of the airport and airplanes right now.. hehz...oh apparently RI having their 'prom' on 26th.. after geog paper.. hehez.. well they dont need to dress up anyway.. :)

2002-10-22T09:33:00.000-07:00

oh confusion.. crap.. i dont want to improve english by practising.. arhh.. why must they bloody hell include languages... im doing fine.. i dont need to be literary to be understood! if i can do ok for other subjects wont it mean that im understandable??? crap

and i dunno which jc to go .. actually nj might not be tt bad.. i will promise myself to get into the sapphire scholarship thingy :) and my sis says the softball team is prettypok so perhaps i can be the captain there too.. such high hopes and aspirations... :) whatever

2002-10-20T01:05:00.000-07:00

hmmm
oh no better make this quick.. gotta study..
anyway i really have no idea where to go!!
i am really scared i screw up Os and if i get to hc and rj it would mean ill get kicked out!! and I'll just die if i do... i need to stay in the jc... cos if i get thrown some where else i wont be accepted into their softball teaM!.. aww.. and rj softball team seems so wacky and fun... plus slack! a huge encouraging factor.... :) mwahah..
ok hear me out.... RJ was so ALIVE.. in comparison to hc.. and more hip! haha.. but somehow i dont really like the competition there.. and my god my stupid senior was 'think of all the opportunities u will miss out in rj' in a really horrible tone tt sounds like -rj is the best jc and all others are so inferior- mannn im never gonna join track in rj.. whereas hc track is so fun... tho the softball pple are a bit dead.. and hc is not as hip.,... :) sorry to be so superficial but going out with sunny serene ad and val after made me think twice about going to hc cos i dont want to be a burden.. esp when it comes to food.. i hate it! i could curse the chi pop right here right now.. :) and start a conflict but hehe im nice... and serene sunyi ad n val were very nice and accomodating just im pissed tt i had to be such a burden.. and yea im pretty sure not everyone will do tt.. so i will have to face it more frequently at hc... but i think hc pple are more conservative... but friendly..
then theres the vj option.. i think if it takes about 1 hr to get there ill seriously consider it.. and it can be my backup jc cos i think nj is a bit the stoned.. the pple there are like 'study hard and dont come here' its like such a horrible place or sth.. so waddyathink

2002-10-13T23:06:00.000-07:00

tummy aches.. still...
oh no supposed to either be sleeping bathing or studying.. instead am whining..
haiz..
the last few days were weird.. all my seniors + Joon was like... 'GO to RJ!' *gasp* why are you going to NJ? HC pple all talk chinese! sighh....soo i still have no idea where to go well if i lived in the east.. makes my life a whole lot simpler.. just go vj.... :)
bah..
i was telling joon.. it doesnt matter where i end up cos I'd be miserable and alone everywhere too so no biggy.... :)
and even if I managed to get in Rj or HC.. ill be the last few pple to scrape through.. and ill be one of the stupid few in class yet again.. yups yups..
so .. anyone want to add more pros and cons to where I should go? I might as well put a survey and let pple decide for me since I dont care.... :)
wadya think
and damn u stupid gastric pain...

2002-10-02T01:49:00.000-07:00

yo yo yo !!...
yay results are finally over!! happy day.. :)
if they could just moderate english i would be overflowing with joy... haha
oh sigh Os still not over.. darn darn darn ..

anyway go arsenal go!!... haha damn im boreeedd

2002-09-20T00:58:00.000-07:00

cant believe prelims almost over.....gdbye farewell dear frens I am pretty sure I'll end up in the best worst JC.. :) whatever tt may be..
wouldnt it be fantastic if i flunked prelims and then aced Os.. haha fat hope..

anyway, ljungberg is BACKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!... hurrahhh he even scored and set up a goal for bergkamp 2-0 mwahahahaha
going nuts..wonder if theres a game this weekend.. hopeflly he plays can see his bald head sprinting across the field hehes
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i cant read heart of the city anymoreeee.e.. they had to bill the blooddy stupid comics page... im so upset... grrrrrrrrrr and they dont even have it in borderss... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
so pissed... and aching

2002-09-14T07:48:00.000-07:00

haiz.. shant rant about prelims..
cant believe crys n jennie are arguing so much abt uwc.. if i cud just be there.. :)
yea sure life wouldnt be perfect but more perfect than staying here... i think and pray and hope..
oho. i read somewhere tt they think ljungberg is gay cos he dresses so well.. he is like a model for GQ and hugo boss so cool right
hehe.. he has a bro called filip i wanted to see his pic but there just wasnt any.. aww

oh yay man u lost again.. kinda pity them.. .. darn got nothing else to rant abt..
oh if anyone's bored as i am can check out all the comics ever drawn for foxtrot at ucomics.com
im currently reading heart of the city.. its so cute.. and the little boy in it is so cute too..

oo talking about cute boys.. i watched temptation island and like most of the guys in it are so cool haha.. and theres this girl i dont like she is so high maintanence.. and she knows she doesnt need a guy but the guy wants to protect someone.. i conclude they should break up.... :) and another couple... they are sooo sweeeeett.. i hope they get married like the other couple.. :) hahaz well sorry to be so sappy but my love life's pretty empty!!! heehee

oh.. final say.. whoever wants to sign up for sea sports club should go causeway pt or tell me mag n hon cos theres a sign up 2 pple for price of 1 offer -- according to jennie and 3 of us prob gonna sign up... :) the more the merrier....

2002-09-12T07:59:00.000-07:00

crappy stupid blogger tt doesnt werk~

2002-09-09T23:05:00.000-07:00

blody crap i dunno why they dont come out!! well sometimes they do so if ure lucky.. can anyone tell me the prob check out my htmls whether they are right anot.......
anyway if u cant see i have them on www.geocities.com/lil_hurdler/(either, shoppingljung, ljung and ljungyoung).jpg *grin*
haizz.. wasted like an hour on this.. but it wasnt like i was gonna study either.... hahaz

2002-09-09T00:49:00.000-07:00

hrmph.. all pracs are over.. id rather do ppracs.. :( oh well
even though i screwed them up.. :)
ooo ljungberg may be coming back so happy.. happy happy happy he even has 2 webbies!! so happiee.. ill bookmark themm!http://www.freddieljungberg.com/main.htm 'it has been revealed that Arsenals Super Swede Freddie Ljungberg will be making his footballing comeback in a behind closed doors Reserve fixture versus Reading on September 11th at London Colney'
'Elle magazine (Sweden edition) have just voted Freddie the 4th most sexiest man in Sweden.!' ill put up a real nice pic of him shopping later!
oh heres my current fav song: Alive - J Lo
time, goes, slowly now in my life
fear, no more, of what I'm not sure
seArcHinG to FeeL yoUr sOul
The StrEngTh tO stAnd AloNe
tHe pOweR of Not KnoWinG anD leTtiNg gO..........
i guess i've found my way
it's simple when it's right
feeling lucky just to be here tonight
and happy just to be me and be alive
love in and out of my, my heart
and though life can be strange
i can't be afraid

its real nice n sloww.. haha

2002-09-05T08:19:00.000-07:00

Oh wow this thing still isn't dead.. amazing..
hmms.. I'm gonna die for prelims and to everyone who is reading this, don't forget me ya if I end up schoolless for 3 months :) I hope not. I like orientations.. well not really our skl's sec 1 one.. but i assume JC's will be better.. haha as if anyone even checks on my blog anymore *grin*
I wonder if my commenting thingy is still up..
Im pissed I cant add pix.. stupid val.. how do u do it..
ladida. Geog sucks.. I almost fell asleep reading it for the umpteenth time..
oh yea and im defintely gonna fail English which brings my L1R5 to at least a 14.. :) oh well..
oh yea i have been the piggest of pigss.. I was like have to wake up must not resist.. oo this pillow is so comfy cannot resist.. too comfy oh damn the eyes,.. haha that happens everytime i wake up until about 1pm tis afternoon where I finally convinced myself to wake up,,
hmm.. i don't know where Novi is.. u know my cat.. she is prob up on the roof or sth dunnolah.. I hope she comes down or rings her bell soon so i know she is around.. she is like my stressball.. :) and i regurgitate geog stuffs which make her n i go to sleepp.. oh no she must come down soon..
hmm nvm ill go watch as my dad says 'flushing toilets' well actually meadows can mean toilets for little kids..... :)

2002-07-25T03:40:00.000-07:00

im closing my account i hardly have time to even go online nowadays..
delete me off yr links..

2002-06-30T08:20:00.000-07:00

Brazil woN! (duh)

Anyway, whoever won i was actually impressed by the no of pple who came to my house today.. i thot it was only gonna be 2.. turned out to be 3 times that number wow! hehe i think i have a sore throat from eating too much.. and guess waht my cat is still on the roof.. and its currently 1130pm.. :) surprisinly she was not afriad by kai.. maybe cos she had food n my cat adores pple who give her food

oh wells.. this marks the end of world cup so saddddddddddd.. nvm cant wait for euro.. wait South americans dont play in Euro hmms wateva.. maybe germany can win it n serene can live another day :) oh wells remind me to interrogate hon more tom!

2002-06-29T07:58:00.000-07:00

today was superbly fuN! stupid val went to watch bend it like beckhamm sheeeesh! stupid girl!
anyway remember the 1st korea goal.. it was like ronaldinhio's goal n then the commentator said.. 'he bent it like beckham'
haha so stupid.. oh yea thot the pple there were stupid to put the bloody ice thingy when the game was gonna start stupid.. then shine the light in our faces summore!
well anyway it was fun.. kai n i were like: 'no! that was not offside!!!' when everyone was quiet
'blow the whistle!!!!!'
'NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!'
'GO TURKEY GO!'
o stupid kai was: i like turkey cos i like thanksgiving!! stupd girl!
oh yea n we are 2nd for netball carn too heehee how grrreat..
i think i was too violent playing for just 1 game tho..sarah was like oi oi!! at least i apologised later... and she was nice :)
then stamina died n decided not to play next game ! but nvm we still won both! so cool so cool! oh geesh im so sleepy *yawn*
ok better sleep now then can wake up n bath my cat study then prepare for guestts..
oh yea we shoudl tell ms neo what she missed.. so sad........... :)

2002-06-28T08:16:00.000-07:00

sheesh i was meaning to get down to summarising maths.. but now im too sleepy.. yay tom is netball carn.. cheering haha..1st time in my life mann.. dont luff..
thank god its ez so i wont screw up tt bad.. as long as i dont fall down during the pyramid.. :)
anywya i updated the cool players added like ronaldinhio woohoo.. n collina haha but quite fun.. oh yea serene, i added ballack for the hell of it.. dammit gladys looks like him oK! as in there are some features.. kai agrees too!
oh wells.. i hope sunday goes well im not talking football im just hoping pple will turn up.. all hon's fault lahh haha
nvm quite fun.. i hope

i will give up everything .......myself from you....... i finally ..... i was all by myself for the longest time so cold in sdie and the hurt from my heat that will not subside........ thank god i found you i was lost w/o u ....... somehow became reality you brough tthe sunlight ..... made my whole life im overwhelemed by gratitude cos baby i'm so thankful I found you..

haha who!? its just the stupid mp3 lyrics.. you know sometimes you just got tt feeling taht you need a shoulder to cry on bla bla.. you get my drift but i hardly know anybody and yea right who would even think abt me.. :) i downright suck! but nvm.. I have somehow able to convince myself that being down there doesnt matter ... so what? I'll live another day! geesh im DMSing.. grr. but yea i need to believe that I'll live another day otherwise I'll never get up from all the failures that will happen in my life.. life's gots its ups n downs.. just wished the ride up was forever... ..... what to do.. just enjoy the world cup for now.. forget all about the pains that track and studying brings and focus on the gd things i suppose.. :) viva la brazil....-- (was tt right?..grr who cares)

2002-06-27T06:28:00.000-07:00

somehow i dont feeel like venting tho i just cried like in RI just now.. eeks
grr *yawn* better start studying.. actually i have except that i did study i just hope that things went n stayed in and is able to come out i tell u huifang creeps me out.. she is like prob done studying already!!! die die die
n then ill start motivating myself butthen somehow i will procrastinate summore like now.. :)
ok i SHALL START AFTER THIS.. maybe shall just add pics of some cute pple first.. :)

2002-06-26T03:22:00.000-07:00

hah i have my own list of cool players up.. not many tho but shall add more when i have the time.. prob meaning after world cup haha
heres the addy: www.geocities.com/lil_hurdler/cool_players.htm i think try w/o the htm.. arhh dunno oh no the bkgrd didnt come out arhh nvmm.. :)

2002-06-23T07:16:00.000-07:00

oh uknow that teeny red thing up there is supposedly the comment things..
its supposed to say 'talktome'
so sorry but u get my drift

2002-06-23T01:54:00.000-07:00

grr spain n senegal lost
nvm.. reading valerie's blog is very funnyyyy... her aunt and all.. :) wow watching at wheelock place is damn fun mag and her frens were creating so much noise.. n stupid honkers honk into our ears... went death.. wahh everyone cheered like crazy when korea won so deafening but i agree with valerie.. but i do hope korea will win germany.. actually both dont deserve to be in lahhh i wished the finals would be more interesting.. but i hate heart-stopping matches ccanb diiee..
i rather i be neutral.. :)
n i cant believe tt so many pple dont like brazil.. they rock mannn.. haha yea sure rivaldo play acted and now noone believes him if he was really killed or sth.. but hey its something everybody does.. so ud rather support a team who can play act so well tt you dont know that they are playacting? hah! back at ya..
and ican tbelieve even serene is lilke prejudiced based on looks even if u thinkt hey are ugly.. doesnt give a reason to hate themm.. sure koreas not very cute but i dont hate them even tho i dont support them maybe just in an asian kinda way... man the world is so prejudiced.. its so highly irritating..
haha as if im not prejudiced yea i admit arena sucks.., his nose looks so high up makes him look stuck up.. hate tt.. but wateva
i appreciate brazil's play ok when rivaldo kicked the ball softly so tt ronaldo could get a change to kick in between teh defender's legs so it nearly went in was grreat! and ronaldinhio is good.. the entire spirit of the brazil is team is grrreat.. the interview with their coach esp.. 'i want the brazillian people to believe that we can do more.... and not just in football ....' and then cafu was so cool when his teammate was shown the card 'now we will win the game for u' i cant believe serene thinks its weird to smile.. havent u seen others done it before.. man so deprived... ahha im brimming with insults.. yea n larsson n trezeguet alwyas smile when they miss a shot. whats the harm anyway?

but im not saying england's no good.. they are.. eriksson is a great coach and helped alot. and they deserve to be in the last 4.. just their ill luck.. yea i appreciate a good team.. dont judge ppple from their looks okk..

2002-06-21T07:03:00.000-07:00

hey hey.. so far my predictions are right.. not bad.. oh i shall do more insulting here...

TINKEE: dont insult their looks just because u dont like them.. and who said ronaldinho was lousy! do not condemn my new fav player! haha stupid referee was being an asshole to give him a red.. i hope they dont get kicked out.. cos this far brazil deserves to win the world cup.. or perhaps have a grueling match agst spain

i just realised that g'ny is really lousy with the ball at their feet they miss by like mileeeeees. man they shud call it head ball haha oh wells am cutiing hair tom yay! finally.. wherever change alley may be hahaz

oh yea and i hate ashley cole.. he acts like a spoilt brat.. grr horrible horrible lil boy./.. might as well be playing for gny hah!
damn suddnely i have nothing to say.. oh weirdly my arm feels weird after playing badminton for a while.. aches like crazy.. nvm... hmms maybe i shall just write my b;day list here in case anyone stumbles onto this blog and wants to get me sth but dunno what.. oh yea and my blog URL is my b;day too haha.. speaking of which, minority report opens then.. but tom cruise's movies kinda suck nowadays.. so typical.. minority report is sth like timecop with jean claude van damme i think.. and tt was nice
lets see.. joyce n dee are buying me nice socks.. hon is buying me the modern rock cd i hope.. oh i do want the triple noize cd too.. hmmm oh yea i need a watch doubt anyone is rich enough tho. except there are those FUNHOUSE watches that cost like 35-40 hhez.. they are kinda cute.. hmms oh yea i need t-shirts too.. actually i shud remind myself to buy hon's peanut butter cos i owe her tt since she got such a crappy b;day prez.. shall do it ifi eveer drop by PS>. ok enough crapping beetter get back to amaths.. with hope i wont screw up as much as i did for emaths.. :)

2002-06-19T06:53:00.000-07:00

darn not playing my mp3s so cant so happen to write any lyrics nvm
its 950.. lets do some maths... 830 + 1200 = 2030; 2030 - 950 = 1040
1040 - 6(sleepin time) = 440.. oops only so much time left to study oh hells
heehee ferget abt mocks.. shall talk abt more exciting things liek football.. darn stupid quarters are on friday but tts ok im not too bad at a maths i think its the 1 subject ive actually studied for.. so can afford to watch hehe
lets predict.. haha im the worst predictor on earth
Germany Vs USA.. g'ny wins.. *cross fingers* tt gny thrashes US.. man i wudnt mind seeing a few red cards either at the rate they play *grin*
Senegal Vs Turkey.. I dont mind either side winning but i think senegal will get thru
Korea Vs Spain... WEll.. spain has zilch stamina so if they can hold on to their most prob early lead spain prob get it.. but who knows
Brazil Vs England.... brazil will win.. i just hope their defence doesnt get too bad esp cos i dont want stupid english supporters who only like the team for bloody owen n beckham or cos of the EPL to rub it in my face.. anywya i think brazil is the funnest team to watch.. clean of fouls.. even tho there was the rivaldo tragedy... but they play funner and hardly any cards! whereas england plays so awfully boring.... *yawn*.. and diyanah.. do not 'oh poor owen missed' me again.. its so disgusting haha
lets see how accurate my predictions are..
oh wait i shall predict my mocks scores for the hellof it too.. or rather put down my aimed grade
emaths: an A of some sort
amaths: an A.. hopefully a 1.. :)
physics: a B of some sort.. hopefully a 3... :)
hehez.. lets see how many of 7 predictions come out right.... *grin*
wont even talk abt stupid hurdles n joyce kicking me out of the finals.. hurdles is HISTORY fer me... :)
ciaoz

2002-06-13T22:17:00.000-07:00

--- when i think back on these times and the dreams i left behind ill be glad to get to have u in my life............. i look and see yr face u were right there for me......... in my dream ill always see u soar above the sky....... ----- aww haha darn i can never get started studying. nvm,, who cares.. .... just here to tell serene that OWEN IS NOT CUTE.. haha.. i was abt to send her pix of trezeguet, lizarazu n ljungberg but decided was too boliao ahha.. but serene u shud check out ljungberg.. he is ultimately cooooooolllllllllll... haha maybe ill go print his pic and paste it sumwhere.. maybe itll strike up some motivation to study (or at least pick up my books) *grin* wel well.. i dont seem very worried for the tests.. mebbe cos i dont really care.. sheesh whateva mann.. im prob gonna end up in somwhere pok.. oh wells.. que sera sera... :)
haha dont think ill be saying tt at the end of the yr or when i get my results.. ohs nos..
today is korea n portugal.. but i want both teams to enter.. grr i dont want stupid US to get in.. suck ass.. i was reading some TIME article on the 'reasons' why they dont like footsy.. kinda funny but cant remember.. i just remembered 1 phrase; 'a few million Americans are still wondering why they dont just pick up the ball and run with it... :)'
okie dokie.. shall go 'study'
-------- this is the story of a girl, who cried a river n drowned the whole world... even tho she looks so sad in photographs I absolutely love her, when she smiles..........how do we get there today.......u never seem to run out of things to say-----------------------------------

2002-06-09T22:01:00.000-07:00

pagi... memasuh hati tulus aku mema.. diri makin aku.. cinta.. cerminsi ... meredang rasa keakuanmu memahami cinta..
--haha stupid song by 2 indon singers.. i dont even understand what it means.. it just sounds nice
oo the bridge.. nvm.. ahhh today sucked.. well not tt bad.. cos i felt horrible during training.. tears in my eyes cos i felt like a total failure.. & then yea yea.. tie in with other stupid things... yalor then joyce come in then can do all 10 hurdles n i cant lor.. and my timing is like shit.. even tho i do 3 steps.. im shit lahhh grrr.. bao n me were feeling really down cos ms zhang was like praising joyce and i knew she was completely disappointed with us.. & its not fair tt she compares us with moot.. im not blaming u moot but of cos we would neva be able to be as good as her.. oh hell look at how lousy at us.. dont scream at us for being lousy at least.. it just feels horrible..i mean u dont yell at someone who is stupid when they have tried their best.. grrr feels horrible
but at least after tt i cleared all 10 even though my other leg sux like crazy.. i told ms zhang but she didnt seem to care.. oh hell im like a nobody cos i cant get into the finals lorrrrr.. grr why am i so singlishy todayyy
i hate being a nobody.. grrrr.. i hate being a teenager.. its like ure so emotional n everything n u know its cos of stupid stupid hormones.. oh hell i wanna be a lil kid again.. life was so much simpler..
haiya.. what to do.. ill just have to continue with my failing life.. go fail Os.. go fail in life.. & yet life goes on.. grr...
-------------------------------never made it as a wise man.. couldnt cut it as a poor man stealing.......this is how u remind me.. this is how u remind me of what i really am this is how u remind me.. of what i really its not like u to say im sorry.. difff story this time round.. herart worth breaking.. bottom every....... said i love u n i swear i still do.------------------------------------------

2002-05-21T17:50:00.000-07:00

*yawn* stupid i thot tthat malay class was at 8.. so stupid..
its like at 1030... now doing elearning.. just found out tt the malay compo is for higher malay *yay*
mwahha.. hmms.. almost finished class film and its not even june yet.. gives me time to study.. which i need alot of..
if im bored i might go to adeline's or val webby and try and steal some html.. :)
or mebbe just find some on the net.. kinda hungry.. hmms shud go eat later..
lets list out work not done
--> 1/2 of geog
--> history
--> SS
--> phys./chem thing
--> physics elearning..
hey tts actually not much... *hurray*
happy
shall finish off physics elearning before malay today..
ss prob tonight..
geog by tonight too
i prob wont do the lock thing
so tts left with history.. *hurray*
shit i have training tom.. *groan* have to study for bio test summore..
DIE..
ok nvm.. shall go home and finish everything except history today... *grin*
ok shall go find htmls

2002-05-14T21:04:00.000-07:00

sheesh im so irritated..
i just heard tt we are not supposed to be doing the class film.. waste my time, energy, electricty for nothing only.. i had to like vent my anger somewhere so i sent an email to 412 egrps thing and started venting haha..
arh
ohw ell i shall just go home and destress by watching the return of the jedi well tt is if mom allows me too..
sometimes she wants to be with me so much, it chokes me!
what to do.. i agree with val abt the teenager thing.. where u know u might be wrong and parents are right and etc. but u just dont want them to do anything.. get the rebellious side of us out.. :)
ok.. hmm another thing. i just realised tt my malay relief teacher did malay 5times and still only got an A2.. *faint* im gonna fail malay ... oh sigh
wateva im gonna fail Os too.. laets see..
im gonna get a 2 for english..
must get 1s for my maths and chem.. bio too
aiming for a 2 for physics n geog but i think a bit too high...
my combined humans will depend on that day!! if it goes well.. can be 1.. :) oh well.. such points will never get me in RJ..
ill prob end up getting 20 points.. not surprised..
but wil cry my eyes out..
arhh.. shall go n stop crapping.. go home eat sleep watch TV.. yea right..
mom will prob make me study study study..
i know i need it but u think anyone in the right frame of mind wants to????
haiyas..

2002-05-12T18:28:00.000-07:00

hmms..
malay prelims felt fine.. i hope it goes well so i can use it for JC entry..
hmm. in side the encounter lab now.. cos stupid magic lab isnt open for me to do class film.. lousy..
wonder if i shud go do after skl.. maybe just a bit..
arhh.. *hungry* but its 1st recess.. how can i be hungry..
aiya.. at the rate i eat.. ill be a big fat monster.
hmm.. cant wait for star wars to come out..
i bet some parts will be quite boring.. esp the negotiations part.. nearly fell asleep yesterday watching tt part.. of episode 1
and ADELINE.. IF U ARE READING THIS.. I STILL WANT TO BORROW YOUR TRILOGY 4 5 6...!! haha so ridiculous for me to write here when she is just sitting next to me.. *grin*
oh watched memento yesterday.. quite cool.. but can go nuts.. i wouldnt mind watching the artsy fartsy movie in the cinemas but it just made me sleepy at home..
hmms.. oklah.. tts it for now..
perhaps i shall do a page for the webby now..

2002-05-10T03:33:00.000-07:00

phew
its hot in here..
friday.. 1 more skl day left!! but wait..ihave prelims malay tom!.. die..
nvm.. what to do.. quite tired.. think think think.. i had so much to say.. but not anymore..
so shall go.. i want to watch movie tho.. maybe ill save money by making the class movie instead *grin*
i will already be spending sooo much during the hols for like rgs nite tix which i thinkare prob not worthed 12 bugs.. and then camp and all.. arh.... shall stop whining and go read some malay
ciaoz

2002-05-05T03:36:00.000-07:00

finally back
from ORA.. quite a waste of time.. at least i didnt have to pay for the blardy ex. netball games.... *grin* just filled in any empty positions.. in the end played 4 matches but payed 50cents only haha
then i never do anything for the stalls.. haha dont care.. i never do anything everyyr anyway...
just finished watching last yr's sec 4 farewell cD.. so lousy.. i shall make one 10 times better than what was shown.. haha yaright.. like i got all the time in the world.. should hurry up and get it over with so i can spend more time studying.. harhar..
decided im prob never gonna get into RJ>. i think my english is already gonna get an A2 liaos... so will my malay.. and its not even higher malay.. *ashamed* not really.. i hate langs.. i hate skl for tt matter and i wished i cud just stop going to skl..
life is so meaningless and materialistic anyway.. nothing missed..
oh yes.. i will buy a skecher shoe right after the current ones die.. :) sigh.. this blog is so meaningless since no one says anything bout it.. who cares.. shall go read others and offer my opinino... :)
ciaoz

2002-05-01T07:52:00.000-07:00

val.. u suck
shall act cool in this blog and show my masculine side..
u wait and see lau lau...
like ure so not feminine.... :þ
anyway.. u liked the bkgrd too lau-sy!
gtg
--this is a lau-sy blog entry dedicated to the great val erie--

2002-04-29T22:02:00.000-07:00

am back..
am seeck.. aww
decided to upload all the pix i have been planning to upload for god knows how long.. stupid mp3s are taking forever to upload! check them out at www.geocities.com/lil_hurdler/home.htm the music is not up yet tho..maybe ill cancel the music part... takes forever!
anyway im hungry.. so i will eat soon..
hrmph.. seems that nobody minded tt i didnt come to skl today.... :þ noone replied my sms.. nvm *pouts*
vvvv crappy
byebye

2002-04-25T07:04:00.000-07:00

yoohoo. .:)
being nuts.. tom sports day.. yay! they must announce by division.. our sec 1s deserve to win!! woohoo.. then later got class camp i hope itll be great!!!! *grin* grinning from head to toe.. packed my bag for tom liaos.. just slacking ard right now.. vv fun...sigh.. got nothing much to say except perhaps i might have a chance at Os *cross fingers* hopefully iwill work hard enough at it!! :) hope we get to do lotsa fun stuff tom.. shud i swim on sat? perhaps.. we will see.. but wateva it is.. ill be vv tired by the end of both days!! *grin* ciaoz

2002-04-23T09:32:00.000-07:00

im finally back..
well anyway.. i dont care whether u comment anything abt my blog cos i cannot be bothered to add the HTMLs make me dizzy only.
unless anyone offers... khehe.. anyway, yay sports day is coming.. excited only by the fact tt our sec 1s rule! and we have class camp after tt!! yipeee.. cant wait. must play lotsa nice stuff..
ooohh i cant believe i haveta go for starlit nite.. hah .. starLIT .. im not even taking lit.. go away man.. and its a wed.. posters all ard but for what right? nvm.. crappy crappy..
oh no my sis is sleeping.. tt means it must be time for me to sleep too.. i cant let her sleep earlier than me!! then it will be breaking the record for like 3 months!!!!!!!... :) *sorry for all the crap* ciaoz then........

2002-04-20T18:07:00.000-07:00

sighs
haha my timing for the race deteriorated.. but so did everyone else.. but lo n behold i still got 7th.. why?
cos alvinnia fell n rolled.. but continued.. poor girl.. nvm she is only sec 3.. sigh.. hate hurdles.. done it for like what.. my 7th yr now?
sucks man..,
arhhhhhhh.. hafta study.. hmms.. i need to get a 6 or a 7.. impossible!! crazy.. curse those pple who can..... :(
i know im being sour grapes but i hate failing my expectations.. and at this rate.. i know i am gonna fail .. *groan*
LIFE SUCKS... or rather... SG's EDUCATION SYSTEM SUCKS.. arhhh..